my marriage

My marriage is officially over. Rafael came over today..... its our 3-year anniversary.... and he said his decision is final. There's no room for making it work. He doesnt have a clue. I sat there and listened to him speak for 1/2 an hour as to why.... there is no why. He's a lost soul. I still and will always love him... I've lost my faith in people in general. How can someone make a promise to God, and just walk away from everything? I never stood a chance in this marriage. He never loved me in a true sense. I was living in a dream world. All of my hopes and dreams have been destroyed. My spark is gone...... especially due to this CIDP crap. There's nothing left for me. I am just killing time....