Update

sick of it
Originally uploaded by jodiemim.

I got home from the hospital this past Tuesday, and its been hellish ever since. I fell in the bathroom that evening and sprained my right foot. I had to go to outpatient physical therapy for whirlpool the next morning, and I was sick as a dang dog. They cancelled whirlpool, and sent me straight to the ER. Mom and I stayed there for 6.5 hours. Diagnosis was severe dehydration. I kept telling the doctors while I was in the hospital, but I guess no one listened. ER pumped me full of fluids and confirmed the right foot sprain. My right knee was ok. The next day, I stayed in bed for most of the day (Thurs) and pumped myself full of Gatorade and other fluids. I could barely get out of bed my blood pressure was so low. I did manage to fall again in the bathroom that morning, and I either sprained my left foot or broke it. Hurts like a bitch. Nancy just laughed when I told her saying, "As if you didnt have enough trouble walking." lol Finally, that evening , I started feeling better. I was able to make it to the clinic the next day, had my whirlpool, but they decided that outpatient wound clinic was the best route to heal my injuries. Saturday and Sunday (today) were a complete wash. I slept for most of the day both days. I feel better now. Its almost 2am now. So, I'm up to 42 falls since May. What a fun Life I lead. God, I promise not to try and make myself happy anymore because when I do go for things that fill my life with warmth... I just get knocked down again. I wish Grandma and Grandpa were still alive, as I know they would've done everything in their power to see that I was ok mentally and physically.... just like Mom has. They were not "hands off" kind of people. But, I think I'm wearing Mom out. Between what Lisa did to her, Kathie's undiagnosed status which would explain her behavior, and the attention I require.... she isnt having much fun during her golden years. The only consolation is how much money she'll get when I kick off. At least, it will right the wrong that Lisa did. I wish that crazy person had never come out of her womb. This picture says it all. I'm sick of everything.... If I go to bed now, I'll get 6.5 hours of sleep. After 2 full days of sleeping and resting, I dont know if I'll be able to. I'm wide awake now.